Learning by Living

Hi Everyone,  I've never blogged before & I feel a little like I'm in a new store "virtually".  I even have the benefit of already having a gmail account.  It still told me I wasn't invited.  I'm too old now ( at a perpetual 35 with a 1 yr old) to take it personally.  Lo & behold, I turned the virtual corner and found you all!

I have ventured into Changing Diapers, Changing Lives and at first glimpse felt, oh cute.. a little devotional to stir my mommy heart. I read, Parenting in the flesh, and thought, we're  so close to the moment in time that there is still a sense of shock about it.  Our daughter is ?really? the culmination of the great love we share.  It's not that I can't appreciate the message or be moved by it. I'm just still in the WOW of it. 

The second devotional, Learning by Living reminded me of things that life has forced me to do;  things that have humbled me, things I have had to do afraid.  I remember when 'being by living' became less of a burden for me.  I had gotten ahold of some Joyce Meyers tapes ( much better than TV).  One was entitled, Do It Afraid.  Whatever the delivery was, it brought me to my gate of fear.  And then, with all this resolve in her voice she said between her teeth, "Now DO it, afraid."  After that, I felt the empowerment that comes with resolve.  I was able to feel forthright when confronting new tasks with anxiety.  Not knowing & not 'being' lost much of its power over me.

It's a nice thing about being a parent that there's no confusion in the title. When one has a child , they get the title. It's not like becoming a gardener where there is a period of ambiguity and self-identifying and other's acknowledgement.  If I grow a little am I a gardener? What if I only grow one every other year?  When a person has a child, they get to have the title before earning it.  Hmm, reminds me of another relationship we have...  Oh, and I don't have to worry about filing on time for it.  What a gift.